Yes, every day is a hard one... the grief is overwhelming However ... There are two hardest parts of the day: Waking up alone And Going to bed alone That. Is. All.
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Jack of All Eco-Trades
This day-to-day has been quite difficult since June 6th for us ... our only mode of transportation broke down and we have been without. Our truck is the last material thing that Torey was in when he passed. I don't know why, but I feel like I need to keep it for that sentiment ...... Continue Reading →
His Birthday is Coming
Torey’s birthday is coming up on the 18th … I’m not sure how I feel about it. I think of my mother-in-law, Vivi, often and the pain she’s going through as well. A beautiful soul was born that day back in 1976 only to be taken too soon… Born in Wadley Regional Medical Center… I feel... Continue Reading →
Thoughts & Creativity
I'm going through some of the only journals Torey kept from the time period before Das was born: mainly 2002. I'm working on placing all of his work on a digital platform to share with the world... still undecided on which platform so feel free to share your suggestions with me. He was so creative... Continue Reading →
Up-Cycled Love
At the beginning of last month, I found myself in my closet, holding on to Torey’s clothes he had on when he passed away. I shed so many tears, felt the urge to hold on to his torn-up shirt and jeans. His Grandfather had gifted Torey the shirt – Granddaddy used to wear it often... Continue Reading →
State of Mind
I've been gifted with several books about Grief during the time of the funeral. They sat on my bedside table, untouched for months. I started reading them last week and I feel like they're a re-run of the book I read before. Yes, they make sense. No, I'm not sure how good they are for... Continue Reading →
This is Comforting
A dear friend, Brotha Ed, shared this with me: Torey and I often talked about energy and how we believe one never truly goes away once you die. I find this comforting and understand not everyone believes in this or agrees with this train of thought. Neither of us ever had the drive to be... Continue Reading →
Das | Dreams | Detours
24 weeks in … it’s hard to believe we’re in the sixth month since T-Mitch’s tragic loss. Six months … never thought I could go this long without him and it’s hard to accept the notion of having to live like this until my own death. I truly appreciate those of you who have been... Continue Reading →
May 3rd – a National One
So apparently May 3rd is National Widows/Widowers Day in this country - June 23rd marks International Widows Day. I had no idea these were even a thing! I'm not sure how I feel about these days - I understand the need to recognize people in this category. I truly do. But ... do they have... Continue Reading →
Running on Empty
Emptiness = Loneliness There isn't a moment that goes by where I don't think about what T-Mitch would say or do. I found myself telling a long-time friend that Torey was the only constant in my life I truly relied on with every being of my soul today. That's a fact. I moved in with... Continue Reading →
Belligerent Gus 