I got to hang out with Torey in my dream last night. He was in good spirits and made us (Das and I) laugh. He got hungry and before I knew it he was devouring some chicken wings! Of course, wings, right!? They looked like the desi wings I make which were his favorite kind…... Continue Reading →
Well … the one-year mark is approaching, and it’s been heartbreaking to even acknowledge this. It’s still so hard to believe Torey’s gone sometimes. I’ve been clearing out a storage unit he used for his recycling pickups. We eventually ended up in using it as our own storage unit and man this was an undertaking... Continue Reading →
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Torey and I are children of the 90s and Red Hot Chili Peppers were/are one of our favorite bands. Even though we weren't drug addicts, we really appreciated their "Under the Bridge" song ... we would sing our hearts out together while listening to this tune almost every time! We loved it so much that... Continue Reading →
So the NFL season has started ... a moment in time Torey ALWAYS looked forward to: his predictions, shoulda's, should-nots (mainly for the Dallas Cowboys, of course!) and SO MUCH MORE! I know he woulda loved watched the season opener with the Chiefs vs. Texans. Although our son, Das, was born in Houston - he... Continue Reading →
I'm not even sure where to start. I thought I had it in me to write a poem about my feelings, but I don't. I tried. Several times. I suppose I just want to share the fact that there are random moments of some serious grief. It hits like a damn wrecking ball. I always... Continue Reading →
So some of us rely on dreams or other "encounters" to be able to relate to what's going on. I have pretty vivid dreams sometimes and I had the following dreams within the past couple of days... Chillin' Torey and I were chillin' in the living room, watching TV. We were on the couch together,... Continue Reading →
Yet another “first” under my belt – a wedding anniversary without my T-Mitch – our 20th one at that. As you can imagine it wasn’t easy. Just anticipating the date two months ago made my stomach knot up and the closer the date came, the more anxiety came with it. The anniversary fell on a... Continue Reading →
Torey knew I was pregnant before I knew. He noticed I had thrown up three mornings in a row for no apparent reason… he said he noticed a few things physically about me (not listing details!). One morning while I was still asleep, he walked to the nearest store (we didn’t have a car at... Continue Reading →
I don’t think I’ll ever get over the sadness and this emptiness in my heart. Some days are okay while others are overwhelming. No, I don’t always answer my phone, nor do I return text messages. I try to find an escape and end up watching new shows or movies, but struggle to pay attention.... Continue Reading →
Belligerent Gus 