So the NFL season has started ... a moment in time Torey ALWAYS looked forward to: his predictions, shoulda's, should-nots (mainly for the Dallas Cowboys, of course!) and SO MUCH MORE! I know he woulda loved watched the season opener with the Chiefs vs. Texans. Although our son, Das, was born in Houston - he... Continue Reading →
I'm not even sure where to start. I thought I had it in me to write a poem about my feelings, but I don't. I tried. Several times. I suppose I just want to share the fact that there are random moments of some serious grief. It hits like a damn wrecking ball. I always... Continue Reading →
So some of us rely on dreams or other "encounters" to be able to relate to what's going on. I have pretty vivid dreams sometimes and I had the following dreams within the past couple of days... Chillin' Torey and I were chillin' in the living room, watching TV. We were on the couch together,... Continue Reading →
Yet another “first” under my belt – a wedding anniversary without my T-Mitch – our 20th one at that. As you can imagine it wasn’t easy. Just anticipating the date two months ago made my stomach knot up and the closer the date came, the more anxiety came with it. The anniversary fell on a... Continue Reading →
Torey knew I was pregnant before I knew. He noticed I had thrown up three mornings in a row for no apparent reason… he said he noticed a few things physically about me (not listing details!). One morning while I was still asleep, he walked to the nearest store (we didn’t have a car at... Continue Reading →
I don’t think I’ll ever get over the sadness and this emptiness in my heart. Some days are okay while others are overwhelming. No, I don’t always answer my phone, nor do I return text messages. I try to find an escape and end up watching new shows or movies, but struggle to pay attention.... Continue Reading →
You were the reason to breath You were the reason to be To be happy Just be... You were here for our truth And down for our youth Just be... You never let us down Nor frown Or messed around Just be... You wanted more You earned for more You deserved MORE Just be... You... Continue Reading →
Yes, I still see T-Mitch in my dreams and that's where he's the most alive for me. I just haven't been sharing every single one here on this platform. I had a really good one last night and I'm positive it was inspired by Das' performance on the field yesterday. I don't get to go... Continue Reading →
Like many of you I have been binge-watching a few series and watching many movies. Besides writing and dabbling back into my creative side of the brain, entertainment on the tube has been part of my grief-stricken-quarantine-life. Some of it has been an escape while some of it has been a trigger point for breakdowns.... Continue Reading →
Good grief ... this is so f****ing HARD! Torey lived for this shit and I lived for this shit because both him and Das lived for this shit. The three of us worked as a team to get in and out of the ballpark - regardless of which park - and it was our way... Continue Reading →
Belligerent Gus 